47 hearts.

Your heart beat is so intricate, I'm glad eye can still refresh the tone like I never heard the shit, from emotionless I made a shift, felt my blood spill and you cleaned it up felt like I was world bound in nakedness, you can't ever leave me Ms. Missing you would make me forget my point I was trying to score, I'm throwing forty shots toward your heart and you know Kobe rarely missed, with that said toward your soul I'm very interested, hope I fall off the cliff and into your cloud of mist, hard times made soft lost into your curvy ness, I never knew a camels foot came as fat as it did until it stepped down from that stepping stone, into the pool of your embrace I poke into and it got me gone, why quote you when I can insure that you never felt this before, going raw and packaging our love before we reach my mothers door, dreams of taking you to the queen that raised me, spacely I'm high and your accession within mine make you my baby, it's fly like a bat ma no wonder I'm your man and you ride by my side and shit, Robbin your heart was a simple takeover especially since Nas couldn't ether it...you enlightened my aura..

just a little something eye spontaneously while listening too music. eye want you to check out "Emotionless" by Capital Steez, that song is what made this poem. rest in pro his soul. enjoy.

Symphonies Without Sympathy. (Love, Sex, & Death)

Four a.m. And I'm thinking of you,
this goes out to Ms. Whoever You are,
riding in that space car towards my heart, Wish I could see how intricate you fall asleep,I know the walls wish they could grow eyes and peep atchu, atchu god blessed you with the heavenly heaveness, we vibe together and ride together like Bonnie and Clyde we mod through apocalyptic weather, underground our love grew wings and kissed the Milky Way, the milk I pray keeps keeping your body right no lie I like you that way, and all I can do is pray to the most high that you don't kick my heart in a hole to the most low, that would be a tragic hazard that'll piss me off but you wouldn't get peed this ain't R. Kelly girl you know,
my name is whatever it is, cause it doesn't matter in the light when your here, you shine brighter than that comet that flew in our universe you blocked it, out in this battle no one spit a verse you already won your I call you beautiful and you tell me baby stop it,
like I'm acting childish girl don't make me climb up in your cockpit and fill it with my cockspit, cause when I call you beautiful I'm calling your name I'm thinking of your soul and covering your pain from the rain, I was emotionless with my pass but you brought out my heart miss, the harder love is too find the more you'll appreciate and I articulate how much I love you to my homies babe, I fall in love with you every day I'm still fucking up and growing up but hopefully you won't feed me and hand me a sippy cup, I wanna look you in your eyes to make you know I'm not like him Just so you know when your low I'll pick you up
Mary Jane and wedding rings is for what we came get high tasting your honey staring at the moon huh? Four play at four a.m. Without censorship no television, Just sex with wisdom laying within each other reading the sensations without vision, Make sure your heart is suitable and fits into this square and never remove like cuticles, I got a love jones for your bones and I don't have to be a paleontologist to see how cute you are..
I'll never take your smile for granted, the dimples in your cheek the only holes I wanna see that's planted, don't let nobody tell you different take my heart for a sprint miss, I'll track you down every time like the baton you are what I'm missing, I never look back to my past I just make up a new future every time I write too ya, we're burning up like a skillet, the skill it took to keep your love was elementary and I never understood how guys could break your heart yet keep their vision, set on keeping you imprisoned, it's the season for love the smell is great and we're progressing, never regress within this progress I hope we can be immaculate compared to others, perfect defines you you succulent dime you make me flip quarters into ponds with the wonders, you work on my spirit I thought was once impossible how flawed I believed love was but once you accept what love is it'll show you how spirits connect, intertwine like the vines grown from flowers we flow for hours on melodies pianos can't reach, you touched my chest and my broken heart got breached, kisses are suppose to be breathtaking, heart shaking & soul quaking, I'm thankful to be laying under the rubble with you...

dress hanging off your shoulder you pull on my coller while i take my time with you, my breath on the back of your neck pushing your palms against the wall spreading your legs, whispering R. Kelly's 12 play even though I got a whole play book of moves for you tonight, feel like I sampled heaven when I pushed your lips apart with my fingers and stuck my tongue in your moistness, how intimate can i get? Oh you don't remember? Telling me to go harder even when my hardware was at its hardest, you told your friends about our night last time that's why duck tape and ropes are being involved tonight, see your friends never truly knew the meaning of no hands but your laid across the floor tied to the bed with your ass in the air, I would obey you if I wasn't on top of you inside your pussy slaying ya, I'll never fuck up what we got since I like fucking ya, when you take off them Vicky's girl tell me all your secrets and I promise I'll keep them, cause I can say anything when I squeeze inside you only deep breathes trying to hold back my semen, it's like our bodies are steaming we're finally to the spot that we both love and in your pussy I'm a sea men, gripping on your hair I find some kind of peace I could never find with the females I'll have after you, and with every stroke the deeper I get the more your gasping for life, and with every stroke your taking my heart, so I shorten my stroke cause I hate that you stay so far away even though me inside you is where I stay, we sex like we trust each other your upside down with the only support from falling being your legs wrapped around my neck, you know I never use my hands when I eat I don't need a fork to dive into you..

and I'm probably gonna tell you I can stare in your eyes for the rest of my life and you start to blink, and I'll compliment your outfit then you'll unzip strip and over think, I loved you through ever season since I met you, and only left you hanging when there was a bed to catch you, maybe I'll just end up alone in the end taking my own life with her pistol, I pretended with the police telling them I haven't seen you in weeks like we weren't a commodity, no need to tell the truth when you stole the heart that I had inside of me, you drove your high heels into my heart and turned at every street until you hit a dead end, I love you to much to not hold you while you drown in this tub of loves end, the police asked about the black eye I had and I told the poison ivy got into me, we spent Sunday mornings in bed so I've always had built up devilish ways in me, and you brought them out me screaming and shouting the cuts around my neck wasn't just from me pounding, enough is enough you told me your leaving before our gire drill and there's nothing I could do to stop the siren from sounding, and I can't lose you without losing my life in the process cause you were my life and you knew this, I had already duck taped your mouth when the cops came for the last time and it was the last time I spoke to anyone in such a bliss, and that night I fucked you one last time you was tied up so I guess I raped you before I took our lives, I told you you'd never leave cause once I got you I wouldn't let my life ruin our togetherness or our vibe, I had no job no kids no car just you this bed and this bible proper up by this weed jar, and I smoked my way to the drive and I drove off that cliff just to propel up both into the hell we bypassed in our cell, I'm always getting hurt by a woman anyway highed up drowning is painless compared to learning your fucking another man, it would've been funny if somehow you got loose and claimed out the trunk I would've just had to come back to life and hang you by the fan, misunderstood innocent man that gave his life for a women that'll never understand, never comprehend that I couldn't let her leave me unless it was by deaths hand, she'll never understand now.

Love (@ 4)

Four a.m. And I'm thinking of you,
this goes out to Ms. Whoever You are,
riding in that space car towards my heart, Wish I could see how intricate you fall asleep,I know the walls wish they could grow eyes and peep atchu, atchu god blessed you with the heavenly heaveness, we vibe together and ride together like Bonnie and Clyde we move through apocalyptic weather, underground our love grew wings and kissed the Milky Way, the milk I pray keeps keeping your body right no lie I like you that way, and all I can do is pray to the most high that you don't kick my heart in a hole to the most low, that would be a tragic hazard that'll piss me off but you wouldn't get peed this ain't R. Kelly girl you know,
my name is whatever it is, cause it doesn't matter in the light when your here, you shine brighter than that comet that flew in our universe you blocked it, out in this battle no one spit a verse you already won your I call you beautiful and you tell me baby stop it,
like I'm acting childish girl don't make me climb up in your cockpit and fill it with my cockspit, cause when I call you beautiful I'm calling your name I'm thinking of your soul and covering your pain from the rain, I was emotionless with my pass but you brought out my heart miss, the harder love is too find the more you'll appreciate and I articulate how much I love you to my homies babe, I fall in love with you every day I'm still fucking up and growing up but hopefully you won't feed me and hand me a sippy cup, I wanna look you in your eyes to make you know I'm not like him Just so you know when your low I'll pick you up
Mary Jane and wedding rings is for what we came get high tasting your honey staring at the moon huh? Four play at four a.m. Without censorship no television, Just sex with wisdom laying within each other reading the sensations without vision, Make sure your heart is suitable and fits into this square and never remove like cuticles, I got a love jones for your bones and I don't have to be a paleontologist to see how cute you are..
I'll never take your smile for granted, the dimples in your cheek the only holes I wanna see that's planted, don't let nobody tell you different take my heart for a sprint miss, I'll track you down every time like the baton you are what I'm missing, I never look back to my past I just make up a new future every time I write too ya, we're burning up like a skillet, the skill it took to keep your love was elementary and I never understood how guys could break your heart yet keep their vision, set on keeping you imprisoned, it's the season for love the smell is great and we're progressing, never regress within this progress I hope we can be immaculate compared to others, perfect defines you you succulent dime you make me flip quarters into ponds with the wonders, you work on my spirit I thought was once impossible how flawed I believed love was but once you accept what love is it'll show you how spirits connect, intertwine like the vines grown from flowers we flow for hours on melodies pianos can't reach, you touched my chest and my broken heart got breached, kisses are suppose to be breathtaking, heart shaking & soul quaking, I'm thankful to be laying under the rubble with you,

Poetic Justice.

every second, every minute man I swear that she could get it, man if you a bad bitch put your hands up high, and I swear your fingers better be reaching up for the sky, your arms tangled towards the stars while your on your knees and I'm under you eating, I mean I dedicated my world to you even though I never appreciated your globe cause your eyes were too scenic, I can never write my wrongs unless I write them down myself, I can't listen to Trey Songz unless I'm sucking on your breast, I can't fuck other girls like I used to fuck you, I know you remember that day we made love to that mixtape...god damn girl, god blessed you, and he blessed me with them months me and you equaled two, now I just wish we could see each other more often, hear each other talking, stare at you while you walking, make love to you in my mind even though you never know my hearts bent, so is my dick and I loved that interference it caused, crashing against your walls...your mirror reflection got me reflecting on that sexing...pardon me, one day you'll figure out the only man you needed was me..one day you'll miss calling out my name and you'll grab your iPhone put that playlist on and play with yourself cause you missing me..but until that date come I'll try to keep you around for as long as I can, as long as I've known you I never thought I lose that grip on your hands...and I knew just what you wanted and I knew you wasn't ready, and it don't make sense how we switched places cause your there and I'm sitting here writing to you..I loved showing you off, I can remember being naked staring into the mirror at each other before I tore you off, poetic justice, poetic justice, do my writings about you ever get you flustered? do you think our love making ever did our relationship justice? we almost went off in public...lol.. you remember that? on that park bench, in the morning old people sat, at night my finger were fondling where you sat...dedicated to how we were, i used to feel without you the shine from the sun wouldn't occur...I still reminisce on your fragrance, you was my inspiration, you taught me patience, every time I write these words the look my face has is blatant, but I could never right my wrongs unless I had a time machine space ship...

A letter..

I just wanted to write this open letter to this special that won't be named but she'll know who she is once she reads this. I hope all is well, I hope your life is really as happy as you seem in your pictures. I hope school is going well for you...since I know you can do better than what you do I hope you get inspired on the regular to do more than expected. I hope your father is doing better than I could ever imagine. I hope you still invite me to your wedding (lol). I hope she's treating you better than I ever did/could. I hope that the look on your face you get from your significant other never goes away. I hope you know I still love you and would never want anything to happen to you. I hope you know I'll always be here for you even though we hardly speak. I hope your future is brighter than mine. I hope everything will be fine...

Passion

Why can't the man be partially dressed, fixing you breakfast while you lay in bed rubbing your breast? Throwing rose petals underneath you cause your walk inspires me plus I like how your slow walk grips your lips..its not that I pamper you but whenever you need a pull up its because your legs are falling off my hips..you say I'm too deep and I tell you I try to reach the core of the earth to show you how much I'm worth, deep as a passionate conversation watching the grimace on your face with every stroke just to show my growth...I'm in love with your effort cause you try to make it wetter and I ain't scared to be under your weather, under you is nice but over you is better, on top of you wrapping your hair in my hand and pulling back digging deep for your treasures..

While the sky's fallin'..

I dedicate this to all the stupid yet beautiful females that believe the world is gonna end this year in December or whenever the fuck the Mayans said we'd perish..this is for y'all.
We need to hurry up and make love, cause I don't have much to live for...and I'd rather die inside you raw up on this pillow, than bleeding out on a corner next to a widow..how dedicated we'd seem, making love while the sky is falling outside hours before judgement day and living out our sexual fantasies; to the death of us..with every touch the world crashes against us, and I bring you closer so nothing can come between us..and you told me go harder cause the earth shaking making me slip in and out, and you say I'm all your even when I'm covering you mouth..I'll do anything just too get between your knees..and stay there until our breath ends..we made love like you believed I put everything inside you that you needed to stay alive..once these floods subside, I'll be by your side..and after this we'll know every sin we ever made was worth it, falling into a ocean, while stuck inside your ocean..I wanna kiss your soul once the sky falls and our bodies no longer hold us, and I heard death makes a body cold but sex keeps you warm so what about us? Spent my last breathe sucking on you, what a blessing..sex while the earth around you is ending is defiantly a weapon..and even though I know I was never the only one I must be important if we're making love leading into our demise..our demise..there's no place safer than in my arms..face to face legs intertwined, my dick into your mouth and we'll end with your tongue into mine..as the house collapses around us and your legs give out just know we gave our all trying to make the earth stop..orgasms to the point where we can't tell, if we're in heaven with the angels..

Little Something For Ashley, Happy Birthday Girl.

One more hour now, I know you counting down, I just wish Cole would've waited till twelve and e-mailed you I'm A Fool; perfect birthday present right? I hope your day is as beautiful as you are, I hope you get all you deserve and more today, you deserve the world today cause if you think about it the world was yours 18 years ago today. One of the first Cole Fam I met, Ashley you may be my favorite member yet..babygirl it's your birthday live it up beautiful.

Favorite Girl

Favorite Girl.. your the only one I notice, no matter how 40 (20/20) my vision is.. as I plant your body against our door like a notice for our crib, let my love shine down on you baby like the sun seeping deep through a glasshouse deep into your ribs.. Deeper than the dimples you show when I favorite your subtweets.. And you asked if I'd ever pimp you out and I assured you that the only corner you'd be working on is gripping the edge of my bedsheets, and you call me your effort beast cause progressively I dig into your pages effortlessly but this book I'm craving only helps my stroke be patient with me, that's what you told me since it's such a virtue and I understood cause I can be kind of sporadic so I slowed up and your passion showed up, I wanna see if I could love you enough to where we could sweat weaves, and no matter how mad it made you I could call you exotic and you'd never leave.. Favorite Girl.. Believe me just like soccer goals scored the time I kick with you ain't for leisure, ma it's a sport to me to please ya and tease ya... with foreign oils made in distant lands, and your distant cousins wanna meet me and invite a nigga within the family but why can't we worry about trying make a family of our own, we grown, we take the shoving and cussing, and turn it into passionate loving, so why give a sneak peek to others, while in this bed room it's dark and we aren't clothed with nothing.. sultry within your love is and I take it all and let it drip and catch it 'fore it reaches the floor since I know your taste, these moments where it seems like heaven came down into our mattress just for the position we put in place.. and if I'm wasting breath breathing on you then oxygen means less to me than fucking all night making things right that were never even wrong, cause if they were we'd raise passionate hell flames engulfing our bedroom in waves riding on our headboard cause it's the only piece not burned along.. burn down my home as long as you down with me, and I can take you down with me..

.live si evoL

Because of you I feel love isn't worth it, because of you in my head love is person, that I neglect even though she maybe perfect cause when I cry for help no one hears me so love ain't worth it, my heart is torn enough pages wrinkled up so trying to reach me is like being forever blind, we love blind and without thinking no wonder hearts get broke cause we pay them no mind, I keep my emotions inside my ribs in hope that they'll never break through, and my dreams seem to paint a picture I'd just always look through, no hope in my eyes no truth in your words all lies you spew, these letters I write seem to always be about you no exceptions, but you never believe we'd never conceive even if I stopped believe in protection, batteries couldn't make my heart work again neither would it energize the bunny that's suppose to beat for me, inside I feel nothing and yet outside you can tell I just see what it looks like for a girl to really be in love with me, how can't I feel kisses even though I haven't gotta my mouth numb by dentist's in months? she tries to make me love her beating into my heart but it's so tough, so just to ease her pain I fade away, into the lonely abyss I've made a home plenty days, and I struggle with my decision to stay away, but the love I have for you but don't show you is as great as blades, and right now I couldn't connect with you like crates, my mind must be your home cause you knock and I act like I'm not there, you catch me peaking through the window I crouch down and turn around then infront of me you appear, this the only way I know how to stop the headaches and clear my soul, I hope one day when I'm ready for love you'll be there with my favorite soup and a bowl, but till then I'll keep writing knowing I'll never reach you, knowing I'm a class that now I couldn't teach you, my mom always told me I should've never chose you I should've never made you the only one and that I should never just have one, and I wish I listened cause everytime I seem to narrow things down the wider the tear in my heart becomes, love for me is like jungle fever something I know I could but probably shouldn't, and if I would I'd love her but she'd act like she couldn't, pain breathing inside and I write it down, heart beating in my chest but it feels outta town, and I wanna let it all go but I don't know how, my finger are taped to you still after broken vows....

love ain't real.

Re-jointed broken bones couldn't piece together what we tore apart, from the start I thought you was the one and I couldn't believe we would ever stop, the pain I felt after that passion we shared showed we should've never started, since pleasure is pain I raise your high heels towards my chest and let them pierce through my heart, the more I stroke the farther you dig in me, fuck it though cause you never was only digging me, love has fucked me while it was fucking another, love has cheated on me in front of me cause I didn't wanna smother, love has cried out that it missed me when it was with the next nigga, pretty much I'm everyone's ex nigga, while you was fucking me you thought of him no wonder all you do is moan so you don't speak his name instead of saying "daddy", crying on the phone saying you don't wanna be alone and that you don't wanna lose me but why would you abuse me? how hard for you will it be to erase me cause all we do is space this, I'm so cold too me all chicks do is lie why cry on my phone knowing you don't truly care, if you cheat then how much feeling does saying "I love you" really bare? it felt like I impregnated you and you ran into a wall purposely too lose it, premeditated murder how you took my heart and straight abused it, I never would've thought love could do this too me, leave me in a puddle of tears that I didn't cry but ones that were somehow used too me, mucky water made of your excuses and your temptation, im stuck riding waves from your deceitful stimulation, simulation of love we played..

Gray.

I can still remember the first time I saw you.
Freshman, laying eyes on my Mona Lisa.
First loves always end up making you search for a second.
And I needed way more than a second to understand what I got from you.
What is this love, Juanlisa?
I've dreamt of putting a ring on you.
I've dreamt of you bearing my children.
But your dark love was bearing on my heart heavily.
Breaking me down, breaking me down until I crumbled.
The whistle within the wind against the trees told me I shouldn't love you.
But I'm not much of a nature lover.
I've been bandaging the bruise you placed on me for five years now..
The first person to ever make me be someone I wasn't.
Your the reason I'm so stubborn.
No matter how hard I tried your shoes stayed tied we never was bare skin with each other.
Word got to me that you let another man taste the affection you kept from me.
And I still stayed, But I found revenge within another female.
Even now you still haunt me cause a girl wanting my heart doesn't seem too spark me.
Since I wanted you to forever be the driving force to my heartbeats.
Lost love and forgot it's meaning after you.
Still trying to silence those screams I yelled at you, begging you.
My Mona Lisa came with a stained frame.
My Mona Lisa had a cold grin.
My Mona Lisa was painted all gray.
When I feel like this my favorite colors gray, and your in my daydream for days.
Even though I'm passionate on the inside my exterior is stone.
And you made me feel like rain drops, racing from a storm.
I gotta learn how too love again because of you.
But I don't think I'll truly love again because of you.

Good Morning, Good Night.

I wrote this imagining what I want my life too be like once I'm married.. Your welcome..
While we're yawning, I always whisper in your ear in the morning, kissing you on your cheek and reminding you of the passionate night we shared prior, as if I didn't wake up inside you; how could you forget? Breakfast in bed for my lady, my sweet baby, how I treasure you like when I polish you with oil before our night begins, passionately entering you as you stare into my eyes seeing how much passion I have for you, you know; before your eyes roll back and I caress your back so softly, giving you a pillow too bite on making you feel comfy.. See in the night I'm ramming you, but in the morning I'm making you breakfast in bed and telling you sweet everything's in your ear cramming you, with my love.. Sweet love, almost like a caramel scent, after I've watched you towel your body down you glaze your body with caramel spice lotion, and I don't complain I just cement my tongue on your every inch; 'tonguing' you just to get too the core of your love. How many licks does it take to get to the core of your love baby? Yeah, was that corny? Well I'm Horny and I'ma tell you straight up I wanna make love till the sun lay up in the morning, and lay in our same passion all day until the sun sets, and our bodies wet, fuck changing the covers we ain't wanna go no where, and if we hungry we can feed off each other baby it's whatever.. Pulling your hair to arch your back, just so I can hit the same spot that you moan the most for over & over again.. Imagine me licking your spot, and disobeying you when you tell me to stop, what a sexy sin.. and you'll be screaming for me and I'd make you finger yourself so you have nothing to pull at.. does it matter what time? Does it matter if we moaning or yawning? as long as I can sleep with you and wake up too you it'll all be worth it..

Love Life

I used to have a heart, till the first girl I loved cheated the game. She was gonna be my high-school sweetheart, turned sweet tart cause everything she did wrong was right in front of my face and it was like I lived with a blindfold cause I was blind to the fact that she had one upped me.. see you girls like to act like your angels and us men are the devils that continuously beat Tokyo down but I know for a fact that ain't true.. no matter how cute you might think I am, I still can't change the fact that I've been cheated on three times from three women I said I love you too.. the same three women that cried over me and called me perfect.. the same three women that can't keep relationships to this day due to karma biting them.. Ever since I've been living with my feeling deep inside, bringing them out in these love poems I write.. you know I hate when hoes say that hate sensitive men & when people bash Drake or The Weeknd, I'm neither sensitive nor do I hide from my feelings I just bring them out when I feel 'em.. The most disgruntled females tend to flock too me, then leave when they notice I'm not who I seem to be, but why care I've given my all to a female I thought I was gonna marry and she spit on my gestures, and I still hold on to some of that hurt till this day.. till this day I haven't given another all of me cause I'm scared they'll just throw my heart away.. what more can i say?

" You can read people. & Unless you settle yourself, you're just doing you. You know female games & sometimes to pleasure yourself , you go along with it. But then again, they may become a little more involved than you, & start to think you don't care because of your type of personality , but They still come back. Meaning that sometimes they set themselves up for getting their feelings hurt if they can't handle that , making them a masochist . But they like "the thrill" . You're mysterious , you're different . Nothing's gonna make them feel THAT real , so even if you aren't feeling it , You can give off strong vibes." - Aries..

idk, bouncing concepts .

I bet if I promise to love you forever, we'd walk the gates of heaven together, souls touching never worrying about whatever, angels playing our favorite songs, so I kept my face in Psalms & stopped chasing other arms, I know the lies I used to tell you compel you, just don't let em shell you, you love the attention when your lit up and burn out when I'm reluctant to give that shit up, tell the world your mine and shit just for others to wanna take your shine and shit? I don't think so, but it makes you feel special, and that's what I'm here for, love shouldn't be so mental, I feel stupid when I write you these love poems, and feel intelligent when I'm making love to you, no one can tell me you don't love me just by your facial expressions, moan out "I love you" after we done sexing, your my crazy love and you know it, you try hard not to show it but your jealousy does grow'eth, you make me wanna serenade..what a day that'll be..

So intimate..

How intimate can I get it? I bet you set up shop with your girls speaking on what your men respectively have instore, and all of their stories are a bore, compared to yours.. See I love to choke and make sure moans aren't even spoke.. Not to make any marks around your neck, but just so you'd respect, that I like control. The beast I turn into, once I'm in you, would make you think there's a full moon, but it's so eclipsing, how I'm hitting, your frame.. Papi and Daddy is all I hear from you.. Telling me to go harder even when my hardware is at it's hardest.. Your craving for me and I've trained and controlled this between us for years slaving for you, slamming my body into yours like we're wrestling but this ain't no fake shit, the blood sweat and tears are products of your nails clawing me and my tongue all through you and my penis piercing your body making you cry through.. imagine this done to you, imagine were on a slip and slide going till I reach the end just to dry off and go again, that's how I go off in you.. No candle lit dinner, no R. Kelly needed, I feed off your body and we can go twelve rounds playing with each others bodies until we drown into the sticky wax that spills from us both.. I live to wet you in-between your butt cheeks, while I'm layed on you with you under me and me on top of you, you gasping for air and grabbing for the legs of the chair I'll pull your hair forcing you to embrace this passion.. Back to my controlling ways.. See, I don't fuck or fight fair, I'll pull hair, press my tongue against you anywhere, as long as there ain't no breath in you after all the moaning and screaming you do and your motionless I'll know what I did was fair and full of emotions miss.. Ain't it crazy how car crashes and thunder can't upstage our accidents on purpose, purposely our bodies clash causing hurricanes and flash floods from the fluids we secrete.. Some call it nut or skeet but it's much more than that see we observe each others back as I cradle you and you scratch mine, then I get behind and wrap my arms under yours pressing your back against my, chest, I guess, we should nut now.. Huh? So intimate..

Pops..

I never had you, that's blunt as possible, I hope the blunt smoke makes you choke and realize the sad truth. Nevertheless I press on like buttons, in this world I've lived without a positive male figure but no need for crutches; so fuck it. A life full of let Downs from ya, visions of your hands on my momma, karma is a bitch though, real shit yo, I'd spit in the plate you serve me and throw fists though.. that's just my anger talking, black men can get angry too, two times in my life I recall you saying love me only two? What a fool.. foolish is how I feel over you, one day I could careless if you passed away, next day I wish you was here to show me another way, my mom is all I got and if you was at least in my life I'd have two opinions on life, at least. But shit I turned out fine pop, I graduated and never sold a drug in my life I'm everything your not pop, as children me and my sister you couldn't support, but my children I couldn't look at them and not overly support my wife won't ever have to take me too court, I'm not the only child you have birthed and walked out on so why should I be surprised, seems like some of us 90's babies our cursed with "dads" but we gotta live our lives, never depend on that nigga just pull your trigger and shoot yourself into a better tides.
Sailing waters something like sailing souls in my eyes, you see me as a mistake I bet and your right, I wouldn't want I wouldn't want to not be able to see my son make it better than me just cause I'm not in his life...

Happy father's day to those that are really in their children's lives. Taking their son to barbershops and their daughters to ballet rehearsal. 

I write poems for H.E.R.

Even though there are plenty dimes laying around only quarter I need is you. No matter what I'll always be there for you through whatever, any weather that's due just know I'm coming for you. I'm staying for you, though far apart I feel you clinching my heart. Clinching my mind in such a bind it's hard to be apart from you, yet never would I want too. Whatever he didn't do I promise that I will do. I admire your voice like morning admires the dew. Just hoping these lines will get through, that pretty face too that thick skull cause how true can my words be? True indeed if my lips ever move for you. As loves glasses Fogle in the dew just know I'll always see you..

High For This

You'd wanna be high so you can take it all, I wanna fuck you while your high, I wanna fuck you while you can't even feel shit and still try to make you cry.. And you told me you don't even smoke like that but your moaning and puffing from this blunt while stroking you, rushing for more coke cause of the experience plus you said you love how it feels while I'm choking you.. and you said you don't even roll papers but just worry about rolling on top of me, telling me things like, "I'm a ride until you let off in me" .....that's the drugs talking but baby don't mind the substances in your body, we'll fuck all week if we must and never tell nobody .. Take this glass from me, take a puff outta my smoke, crawl on that glass table shake that ass for me.. let's have a good time, you wanna be high right? You don't know what's instore for you once I enter inside of you being numb I'm gonna need more of you, even when I've hit the end.. Don't be scared, I'm right here... I'll Undress you your so special too me when were undressed and under the influence of drugs and I'm into you.. oxycontin got our bodies 69'in what a oxymoron, how much you coming girl it's pouring.. Oh.... I can see the pain in your eyes, but our bodies so numb, that's why I made sure we stayed high, I'm so in love with the ride, I'm so in love with your insides.... 

Wicked Games

I got my heart right here beating, I got my scars right here bleeding, I got you body here ready to be devoured, and I'm scared and ashamed but, fuck it right? I don't love her no more so I should just fuck you, right? Right... Just tell me you love me, play those game's that your so used to playing since I've never seemed like I regretted handing you the controller before. Tease me; making me want you more, for sure: you know a onslaught of sexual tension is in your rearview mirror as you stare back at me while were doing what were doing yet, no more. As I get drunk in my passions and rise to new heights while I'm loving you I try and give you my all but see some of me is stuck with her but your assurance is something I'd endure just to cure this curse she placed on me, complacency is what I'm destined to feel with you, I'm a just use you to I feel nothing then fuck you over and make you feel nothing, and that's my motherfucking word to, no matter how much you love the sex I never let it be known that I don't love you, these wicked games we play are so dangerous, scandalous how we press our bodies together searching for much and gaining nothing; thenstressing is tedious... so as I smoke this dope and watch you shake your ass in front of me I get this sour taste in my mouth and realize what's become of me. But you make up for it all as you put your mouth on me and make me forget the wicked games I play while your in my company, comfortably I fit in you and while your quivering you read my eyes and say, "I love you too" when in actuality I'm dreaming of the girl I once said "I love you" too..

"What You Need"

I wanna feel your insides and make you feel like he's less of a man than me, fight through the pain since you said you needed it and I'm thinking your right for me. Didn't I hold you close? Didn't I do the things he never done that always leaves you lusting for the most? Giving my all of me leaving you breathless your face is so precious in your orgasmic expressions, oh lord.. how bad I want you? Worst than a fiend in the night baby.. I'm here to treat you better than he treats you every night baby. I'm that necessity for you, necessarily; while I day dream of fucking you then I open my inbox to "I wish you was inside me spearing me"... Shit, baby, he don't have to know, what he's not aware of will never hurt him so cover up those hickies, make sure they never show. Didn't I hold you close? Didn't we fuck the most? Don't you dare tell me, "no." My heart can't take that, no..... He's still wanted within you somewhere, I can feel it in the way you stare while I pull your hair..  no fair, but he can stay I just love knowing your coming back for more whenever I say.. you need me you need me you need me, don't you? I got everything you want okay? I don't care whatever position cause out of all the licking and dipping sucking and flipping we've done shit'll never feel different.. and he'll never leave you motionless on the outside while quivering on the inside like I left you, why moan when you can scream? Why dream when fantasies lived out make you cream? Your with him but you never want him after me, and I don't give a damn shawty, just wear them boots next time you come shawty..

Explanation: we've all heard "What You Need" by The Weeknd, the song in my opinion is somewhat of a sexual love letter sent to a private P.O. box of a mistress so that her man/husband or whatever doesn't find out..

Rewind

Ever fell out of love, like it was lost love? If you tell me yes then I'd tell you you never loved at all cause to me love is just a figure of the imagination, see we all can have our own interpretations; Joe Blow might fall in love due to penetration, and while he's between your thighs your telling him you love him primarily through the sensation, you feel.. How is it that we can hold hands and still feel apart? A part of us is missing the part we need to park our feelings besides each others and ride besides, you've always "loved" me right? Nevertheless the contest we build up with our minds is so chess while we checker and lose everytime.. The moments when you can call crying and I can console you without making you believe what I told you is a myth are what our relationship used to be about, I think about you now and wonder how you feel about trying to adjust what our relationships supposed to be about. Learning experiences from lost "love" hurt the most due to the "love" we felt, feelings subside as the pain rises over our relationship and takes over what's suppose to be happiness. It's been way to long since we've rekindled that flame we've felt all before and just lost all of a sudden. It's funny how we can feel so much love from the beginning and never benefit from the beginning in the end how abrupt an end can occur all of a sudden.. How is it that you could be scratching my back as I grab the arch on you then our whole time together can curve into being apart from you? Maybe where numb as people to the fact that perfection is blindly acquired while things are beginning, while in the end we tend to wonder on answers to grasp an acceptance to the fact that it's all over.. we begin to question whether or not the end was what we both agreed it really is or if feelings got us misinterpreting our reasons on ending, just make sure you end on a note where beginning won't be an issue if ever thought about, again..

Fireworks

My mornings are made knowing your awake, fireworks ring in my heart not blowing me away but blowing us together in a way so perfect, perfection is what your made of to me; how perfectly put together could a human ever be? Answer that question with those dimples you love to show and I love to see.. I love to see you period without a question your the highlight of my everything, every word I've said before you was everything I've felt and everything that's true.. your eyes make me wanna relive the fourth of July every night, and lay on top of the roof with you picking out stars when the light from the fireworks aren't bright. Feeling you would make my hands go numb due to the fireworks our touch would create, but I've only heard love and never really felt it so I'd forget to care. Forgetting to care about you would be hard; I've never been over you no matter how much taller I am than you.. I want you.. that's only three words within the millions I could utter to make you feel what I feel for you. Fireworks sizzle, burn, and break yet me and you shouldn't fizzle, as we learn, from our prior mistakes. Fake love we thought we should put our all into make our hearts fond of each other. Thinking of you I get this amazing sensation, something like fireworks blown above into the sky making me think of an eternity with you, eternally I don't feel butterflies my nerves are to the point where it's fireworks I feel when I'm imagining you..

Heaven..

Grew up thinking you was a myth until my uncle's told me about you, now I'm stuck with you. I'm stuck trying to get inside of you, learn your in's and outs as if I already knew your whereabouts. See my uncle always said, "be careful who you love, always trust the man above and remember you ain't shit without him." Yet I stay telling females I love them searching for that one that'll leave me and realize, "he ain't shit, fuck him." This the second time heaven came my way, this time in a different form and I don't know what to say, think or do; reasons why I stare at you, like I do. Reason I grip your hand like I do or kiss your lips like I do is cause of you, heaven. You show me another side I've never seen before, I walked into that white light comfortably what a comfort I see looking into those eyes, I adore. I pray that I'll see you, but that I won't ever have to meet you again. I pray you'll stay, even though I'm not ready to commit because I've sinned. I pray we'll stay blissful without each others touch throughout a day, hoping that when I show up you'll be there telling me you still here for me and you'll never leave my side, you ride. You comfortably sit on this pedestal that I place you on in my mind and over time like fine wine we'll age and yet still be young within love we've bundled together. I've never been the type to persevere but with you I'm waiting to leap over pain I've felt so don't jump to conclusions of me breaking your heart and not wanting to be more then we are. Just know loves in the air and as long as we keep you here so don't bump me too the side knowing your wanting to be with a star. I said I  love you for the last time, then I died..

Guitar?

I was daydreaming about fucking you.. so I wrote and this came out. Hope you love it.

Guitar..

As I dive into your figure I realize your eyes resemble the stars, hearing your moans and reaching across your arch, I pause..just looking at you gasping from all the sucking and finger fucking I do to you, the best I could've ever done but I feel like I ain't done.. see my love is like I gun that I hope jams, I remember you going to a bar that same day, jamming to some old Sade when I first saw you, now look at the mess I put inside of you.. what I love about you? You let me hear how passionate I'm fucking you.. no pillows, you never bite you hand you just scream.. you don't scratch my back, you claw it.. and I don't just fuck that ass, I ram it.. your moans write this song I could use a guitar for, laying between your breasts hearing your heart beat, that's what I learned to play the guitar for. And when you coming you do tell me to get off of you, you widen your body so I can fit more in you, I love that shit. Lord knows I do.. you smile and you cringe, you shake and you run from me.. I hold you with all my might, making sure you don't fuck none like me.. making sure our passion ain't something regular, making sure when we done thoughts in your mind don't register.. see things don't seem right to you cause you never thought you could fuck and still feel love.. you never thought you'd ever make love, see you thought all the guys you give it up to just wanted you for your ass and tits but its my emotional attachments that make me stay..inside of you. So as I strum this guitar and you dive into your school work don't worry about us cause our love will never fade, our love will never bend, our love will never break.. as long as my loves inside of you another man wont make you shake.. nah.

Pictures Of Us?

Hey, if your reading this you probably cared enough to wonder about my mind a little bit, so thanks.. About Pictures Of Us? It's a poem I wrote dealing with my issues.. If you don't get it, then... idk. I guess you just don't, even I don't understand myself.

Pictures Of Us.

I sit alone in this room, staring at this Stupid Ass Picture. Yes, I personified the portrait cause it's a photo of us, and what we could've been. And every step I take the eyes of us as loved ones follow me. See that's why I've become so agile because I hate to stop an think of what we should've been so I continue to move, so that contact within eyes would never be made.. Somedays I wake and wish we never made that bond, that so called love that we were so stuck in that we couldn't ever visualize the world in front of us, all we saw was each other. Lost in your eyes and you into mines we went off into this bottomless pit we call earth blindfolded thinking what we had would last until God called us home.. But I know you see me now stuck in this hell hole all alone wondering if I'll ever be able to look you in your eyes for more than five seconds ever again. Let alone touch you, then I'd feel the skin that I've set ablaze with passion and lord knows what feelings that would create. The only grudges I hold on too are within the reflection from the glass in front of us, how perfect we look inside this picture.. How filled my life would be with you still and yet, I'm falling down, yet again.... Why do we choose to love when eventually the pain is everlasting and more felt than the supposed love we feel? I'm lost in my thoughts of wishing I could be found once again within the picture, but I'm lost in a cage of sorrows and regret that I'll never be able to climb out of. Lost in these four walls that I'll never be able to claw my way out of.. My heart turns colder and darker within my intentions, numbing myself is what intend on doing to stay away from ever feeling the way I feel within this picture, it'll never last, I know it won't.. I wish I could ignite this room so we could finally be pieced together, forever...

In the passing of love it is lust we express, and nevertheless it'll be your breast, that I miss yes; but I digress..never will we be again but it'll be your love that I can't throw up since I digest... digested your lies and deceit, although those words made me weak, still transparent my outlook towards you has always been, seen through you always been; able to see through you to my ship in the open bottle, full throttle; I wish I fell yet again I'm glad I didn't cause I wouldn't have been able to stay hallow, this love lost I would've felt... 

soulo.

...hello, haven't really been in that writing mood, i guess cause i lost my inspiration (even though i never really had it) or whatever. but, i hope all is well that ends well with whoever reads these peices of me i put on here. until the next time -> "laugh through tears, persevere through pain, drive through hostility."

babygirl's potential ..

see what saddens me is , you open your legs for them boy who just want to deck you .. instead of being classy and stepping up too a man who wants to respect you .. now i'm not saying your stress can't be released sexually , but it's how less your ambitions are and how great your sexual drive is that's messing with me .. babygirl that man's dick ain't enough too free your soul , but a thought can spark your brain and free your goals , be mindful of the mindless , partially blindness , the way he stares at your body .. yet not seeing your mind for the potential it has , cause your just let him grip your ass .. and smack you up like your less than what he is , like your some sort of sex slave , with no brain you get fucked .. and suck , and blow jobs like Tommy from Martin .. all while he complains about your pussy not being good , and then moves on too the next while your standing there jinxed and as you knock the wood , your common sense hits you but your mind was left behind , all because you was blind .. since you chose too trap your mind ..

Decided to rap.... for the last time today.

Never hand me no hand me downs, like Kobe I'm shooting when your hand be down, she got my dick up like a stick up....just too hand me down, you a regular nigga I'm Freddie you wife her while I cut her, then she did the scissors with her bestfriend now everyone cutting each other...

Decided to rap....again.

Frail niggas waiting on me too fail nigga, but its unfair nigga how I step out and unfame niggas, y'all was never known before now y'all barely forgotten, air out niggas and stomp em', they stare at my airs and ask how I got em', I just continue to snap necks and just do it like Nike commanded me, after death I whisper in his ear I got these from the outlet b, battle me step up out your shadow you coward, I got more dictionaries than the university of Howard, meaning my words might go over your head, like did you know that inanimate was a synonym for the word dead, if you say yeah you lying to me and you can really dead out that synonym, while I'll stay alive and live out that antonym, get it nigga? Oh you don't get it nigga? Unless your heaux comes with a best friend you won't keep shit nigga, I'll keep my circle tighter than a brand new baby girl, you'd girl gon' suck my off yeah that's my brand new baby girl, how you feeling nigga, if you feel me nigga, try and touch me for real then we can see who can feel it nigga..

Decided too write a rap ..

Hello now, your chick got her knees too her elbows now, I met her in France in front of me she took a bow, I told her she should be my American girl she said take her now, so I took her down and I showed her round, she said this is a nice place wow, I said inside you should be even nicer, so I got inside her hole quick before old dawg came yeah I miced her, when I got up in her shit she realized you was nicer, cause I beat the pussy up fuck kimbo slicing cause I'm that fighter, her shit kept getting tighter so I went harder, she light im brown so I put my peanut in her butter and carved her, fuck George Washingtons I'm coming for checks, I'm spitting for respect or I'm jumping at that thing above your neck, except, too read this and be able to connect, the pattern... I'm rapping but I don't scatter, if you got her bet I had her, if you want her bet I'll bag her, before you do, such a sad story go, boo-hoo ... cause your game shit, boo-boo ... and she know im the shit, doo-doo ... I go hard not stiff, my flow sharp but I'm swift, I could steal 3 little pigs from big bad cause nigga I'm that slick.. nigga I'm that fire BIC, like the lighter get a spliff, we could her than higher could get, cause with God anythings possible and I got my Bible inside the whip, I'd never front on you but I'll never turn my back either so I don't feel the whip, step inside a studio wondering how many nigga sick in this shit, record months and never need a cure for a cough oh shit, but niggas out her sneezing all on their kicks, guess im sick..

Being lied too..

I don't know about you but I hate liars, especially in relationships.. I really despise that shit. Like, what the fuck you lying for? A relationship is a bond for a reason there should definitely be trust involved within that bond but if you gonna go off lying about big or small shit there really ain't a bond, is there?it really makes no sense to bate me with all this crap about how much you love me and you can't be without me yada yada yada and then lie.....yeah makes no sense too me but maybe too you it does. I'm learning that you and whoever your with can share a bond but nine times out of ten y'all won't share expectations, while I expect someone not to lie too me for any reason, the female would expect to get all sides of me, none of those things have ever happened for me, guess I have to live with that fact that you did me wrong forever....

Look what you done...

It's like 2012 in my living room and my feelings crossed, losing a father without him dying is such a loss, all over how much a fucking payment cost, when all you used to do was spend money on me at fucking Ross, I couldn't tell you the last time I saw you and had a convo, but I bet you would've asked if I'm alright and I would've said yeah though, strictly out of pride cause you decided to stay out of my life completely, and I can't say what I'll say the next time you greet me, I remember the last time you said you love me and I stared at you cause I couldn't believe it, knowing you and your ways the words you say are so misleading, and now I'm grieving cause now I know once I grow old my son won't have a granddad, but I'll make sure that he has everything that we never had, maybe I should pull myself together and realize you was never here, but your words you used to tell yell in my ear, that's why I don't believe most of what's said too me now, I always wonder what you said too your other child, you sign papers to get rid of me, now your not even kin too me, that's worst than an abortion sin to me, cause you can see all the potential within me, but I'm a continue for my mom I'll never forfeit, I just guess i wasn't worth it... What if I grow too be something? What if your old and you need something? Shit, look what you done......look what you done to me..

What tomorrow would've been...

Blissful..
Neither of us gave every inch of us, we both held back that loving chromosome every human has within us... all because of fear.
I've been in love before, but not like this... now I decide to stay away cause I don't even understand how I could still feel this way about you, even though we aren't a we anymore..
But I can't stay for as long as I wish I could....
You deserve what I'm so reluctant too give away. That one part of me I'm the most fearful of giving someone like you cause I'd be as vulnerable as I've ever been in my life..
Ever trust a serial killer with your life?
Would you ever trust Eddie Long with your 13 year old son? The answer too that is pretty obvious.. but trusting someone with your heart, giving your everything too someone.....should it be this hard? Tomorrow, we remember..
We remember what was uttered, done, and believed..
We remember how much we loved each other, and how much we'd do for each other...
Just know that we both didn't give our all....imagine if we did.

Expectations..

*sigh... When I was younger all the people around me would say things. "I'm gonna do this & that for you." and they did it all, especially my mother. There came a time when my "father" would too, this takes me too my point... People always expect so much of me and I very rarely deliver. Most importantly in relationships... The typical relationship goes like this, you talk for a minute, everything is great, get together and thats when you learn the true person and it determines on whether out not you like what you learn if you stay or not... For Mr its not so simple. Females look up too me, in some weird perfect guy way, and that's not what I am in relationships at all.. Now I brought my dad into the equation because the point of these expectations. I now believe that the reason my dad left me pretty much haunts my love life cause I truly loved Travis when I was younger, and now that hatred that I have for him causes me too be this stand offish type of person.. I continue to lose females that mean the most too me, just like how I lost Travis. And after losing them I hate them, just like how I hate Travis. Now in my life I don't expect a thing from a female, and I can't trust them cause I somehow see the end before it happens...i just wish she stayed long enough so I could get through this but of course she left like the rest did..like my dad did. Can't blame her though, she don't know what I'be been through, I just want to be able to show my full potential to someone.... Anyone, but, who can I trust?

Paradise

You think I'm so offset in the world, don't you?
Almost like the words I seem to spare you I doing even mean in your eyes because to you, I'm cold.
You know, its weird how my heart works..
It waits till the person I love is at a breaking point then, it chooses to want too love...
And nor that, "awwh, baby I love you, I love you, <33333333!" bullshit.
That pouting out my heart kind of shit that I've never done for a female or even thought about doing..
Until its too late .
Sit it doesn't bother me none, I know some of yall wanted/deserved my all but.....fuck it.

" show me love, show me fucking love cause I thought it was all I needed, yeah...clearly I was wrong about it all along, and this will be the year I don't even feel shit." -- Aubrey Drake Graham

Random..

...wise enough too know that money can't buy me happiness or loves but it's gon' get my mother out the struggle, my sister out the hell, my cousins out their troubles, pay a nigga bail, just too watch a nigga fail, at life again, family or not; I'd never get the chance to give another success map again since I'm all that I got. I've sewn truth too my life so the lies shit, like a bike with no peddles I ain't roll up on shit, walk into pits knowing the world won't mean shit; after life as we know it ends..