babygirl's potential ..

see what saddens me is , you open your legs for them boy who just want to deck you .. instead of being classy and stepping up too a man who wants to respect you .. now i'm not saying your stress can't be released sexually , but it's how less your ambitions are and how great your sexual drive is that's messing with me .. babygirl that man's dick ain't enough too free your soul , but a thought can spark your brain and free your goals , be mindful of the mindless , partially blindness , the way he stares at your body .. yet not seeing your mind for the potential it has , cause your just let him grip your ass .. and smack you up like your less than what he is , like your some sort of sex slave , with no brain you get fucked .. and suck , and blow jobs like Tommy from Martin .. all while he complains about your pussy not being good , and then moves on too the next while your standing there jinxed and as you knock the wood , your common sense hits you but your mind was left behind , all because you was blind .. since you chose too trap your mind ..

Decided to rap.... for the last time today.

Never hand me no hand me downs, like Kobe I'm shooting when your hand be down, she got my dick up like a stick up....just too hand me down, you a regular nigga I'm Freddie you wife her while I cut her, then she did the scissors with her bestfriend now everyone cutting each other...

Decided to rap....again.

Frail niggas waiting on me too fail nigga, but its unfair nigga how I step out and unfame niggas, y'all was never known before now y'all barely forgotten, air out niggas and stomp em', they stare at my airs and ask how I got em', I just continue to snap necks and just do it like Nike commanded me, after death I whisper in his ear I got these from the outlet b, battle me step up out your shadow you coward, I got more dictionaries than the university of Howard, meaning my words might go over your head, like did you know that inanimate was a synonym for the word dead, if you say yeah you lying to me and you can really dead out that synonym, while I'll stay alive and live out that antonym, get it nigga? Oh you don't get it nigga? Unless your heaux comes with a best friend you won't keep shit nigga, I'll keep my circle tighter than a brand new baby girl, you'd girl gon' suck my off yeah that's my brand new baby girl, how you feeling nigga, if you feel me nigga, try and touch me for real then we can see who can feel it nigga..

Decided too write a rap ..

Hello now, your chick got her knees too her elbows now, I met her in France in front of me she took a bow, I told her she should be my American girl she said take her now, so I took her down and I showed her round, she said this is a nice place wow, I said inside you should be even nicer, so I got inside her hole quick before old dawg came yeah I miced her, when I got up in her shit she realized you was nicer, cause I beat the pussy up fuck kimbo slicing cause I'm that fighter, her shit kept getting tighter so I went harder, she light im brown so I put my peanut in her butter and carved her, fuck George Washingtons I'm coming for checks, I'm spitting for respect or I'm jumping at that thing above your neck, except, too read this and be able to connect, the pattern... I'm rapping but I don't scatter, if you got her bet I had her, if you want her bet I'll bag her, before you do, such a sad story go, boo-hoo ... cause your game shit, boo-boo ... and she know im the shit, doo-doo ... I go hard not stiff, my flow sharp but I'm swift, I could steal 3 little pigs from big bad cause nigga I'm that slick.. nigga I'm that fire BIC, like the lighter get a spliff, we could her than higher could get, cause with God anythings possible and I got my Bible inside the whip, I'd never front on you but I'll never turn my back either so I don't feel the whip, step inside a studio wondering how many nigga sick in this shit, record months and never need a cure for a cough oh shit, but niggas out her sneezing all on their kicks, guess im sick..

Being lied too..

I don't know about you but I hate liars, especially in relationships.. I really despise that shit. Like, what the fuck you lying for? A relationship is a bond for a reason there should definitely be trust involved within that bond but if you gonna go off lying about big or small shit there really ain't a bond, is there?it really makes no sense to bate me with all this crap about how much you love me and you can't be without me yada yada yada and then lie.....yeah makes no sense too me but maybe too you it does. I'm learning that you and whoever your with can share a bond but nine times out of ten y'all won't share expectations, while I expect someone not to lie too me for any reason, the female would expect to get all sides of me, none of those things have ever happened for me, guess I have to live with that fact that you did me wrong forever....

Look what you done...

It's like 2012 in my living room and my feelings crossed, losing a father without him dying is such a loss, all over how much a fucking payment cost, when all you used to do was spend money on me at fucking Ross, I couldn't tell you the last time I saw you and had a convo, but I bet you would've asked if I'm alright and I would've said yeah though, strictly out of pride cause you decided to stay out of my life completely, and I can't say what I'll say the next time you greet me, I remember the last time you said you love me and I stared at you cause I couldn't believe it, knowing you and your ways the words you say are so misleading, and now I'm grieving cause now I know once I grow old my son won't have a granddad, but I'll make sure that he has everything that we never had, maybe I should pull myself together and realize you was never here, but your words you used to tell yell in my ear, that's why I don't believe most of what's said too me now, I always wonder what you said too your other child, you sign papers to get rid of me, now your not even kin too me, that's worst than an abortion sin to me, cause you can see all the potential within me, but I'm a continue for my mom I'll never forfeit, I just guess i wasn't worth it... What if I grow too be something? What if your old and you need something? Shit, look what you done......look what you done to me..

What tomorrow would've been...

Blissful..
Neither of us gave every inch of us, we both held back that loving chromosome every human has within us... all because of fear.
I've been in love before, but not like this... now I decide to stay away cause I don't even understand how I could still feel this way about you, even though we aren't a we anymore..
But I can't stay for as long as I wish I could....
You deserve what I'm so reluctant too give away. That one part of me I'm the most fearful of giving someone like you cause I'd be as vulnerable as I've ever been in my life..
Ever trust a serial killer with your life?
Would you ever trust Eddie Long with your 13 year old son? The answer too that is pretty obvious.. but trusting someone with your heart, giving your everything too someone.....should it be this hard? Tomorrow, we remember..
We remember what was uttered, done, and believed..
We remember how much we loved each other, and how much we'd do for each other...
Just know that we both didn't give our all....imagine if we did.

Expectations..

*sigh... When I was younger all the people around me would say things. "I'm gonna do this & that for you." and they did it all, especially my mother. There came a time when my "father" would too, this takes me too my point... People always expect so much of me and I very rarely deliver. Most importantly in relationships... The typical relationship goes like this, you talk for a minute, everything is great, get together and thats when you learn the true person and it determines on whether out not you like what you learn if you stay or not... For Mr its not so simple. Females look up too me, in some weird perfect guy way, and that's not what I am in relationships at all.. Now I brought my dad into the equation because the point of these expectations. I now believe that the reason my dad left me pretty much haunts my love life cause I truly loved Travis when I was younger, and now that hatred that I have for him causes me too be this stand offish type of person.. I continue to lose females that mean the most too me, just like how I lost Travis. And after losing them I hate them, just like how I hate Travis. Now in my life I don't expect a thing from a female, and I can't trust them cause I somehow see the end before it happens...i just wish she stayed long enough so I could get through this but of course she left like the rest did..like my dad did. Can't blame her though, she don't know what I'be been through, I just want to be able to show my full potential to someone.... Anyone, but, who can I trust?

Paradise

You think I'm so offset in the world, don't you?
Almost like the words I seem to spare you I doing even mean in your eyes because to you, I'm cold.
You know, its weird how my heart works..
It waits till the person I love is at a breaking point then, it chooses to want too love...
And nor that, "awwh, baby I love you, I love you, <33333333!" bullshit.
That pouting out my heart kind of shit that I've never done for a female or even thought about doing..
Until its too late .
Sit it doesn't bother me none, I know some of yall wanted/deserved my all but.....fuck it.

" show me love, show me fucking love cause I thought it was all I needed, yeah...clearly I was wrong about it all along, and this will be the year I don't even feel shit." -- Aubrey Drake Graham

Random..

...wise enough too know that money can't buy me happiness or loves but it's gon' get my mother out the struggle, my sister out the hell, my cousins out their troubles, pay a nigga bail, just too watch a nigga fail, at life again, family or not; I'd never get the chance to give another success map again since I'm all that I got. I've sewn truth too my life so the lies shit, like a bike with no peddles I ain't roll up on shit, walk into pits knowing the world won't mean shit; after life as we know it ends..