Vent~

I'm scared this might be the end and I don't know how to take it

I'm scared I'm finished searching for something I thought was unattainable, darkness is lurking

Instead of me embracing how happy we were I just think about how happy I'll be

Not considering how sadden you've became

Not thinking about how much you miss me mane

And it's not that I don't miss you but others have been waiting on this moment for the longest

My stamina for you was the longest

So how could I just give up...

How could I wake up and not love you no more 

Knowing that's how you was supposed to do me though

Fast though the process was supposed to be so slow

Ending things without venting things is why I lay in sorrow 

I know you're upset and don't think this is real

If only you could imagine how I feel..

Fantasy~

I open my eyes and see your face

My arm still around your waist

Does last nights activity matter

Looking at our clothes scattered

We lost our underwear against the wall

I took off your bra while you put me in your mouth sitting on your yoga ball

Your first sound will be a moan since I'm still inside

Morning wood for a morning ride

Morning dew as I push inside

Your eyes open 

a stroke awoke you

Fantasies until I meet you..

Fantasy or travesty

I wanna use up all my energy

Then eat you like a canapé 

No need for reasoning with you like a fallacy 

Our bodies meet together in the middle instead of arguing

A poor man can't put you in that mindset I saw you in

When I open my eyes and so were yours 

But your face was under the covers open sucking me in more

I want you so much right now it hurts

Delicate how your body is perched

I can finally end my search..

Taylor Interlude~

I'm aware we haven't met, 

doesn't mean I can imagine our sex, I'll make sure to keep you wet, 

I'm see you soon, 

I'll see you soon, 

yes I'll be there, 

yes I'll be there, 

about to board a flight, 

sitting at my gate, 

I can't wait to kiss you but I'm so far away, 

all I wanna do is give you all of me finally, 

are you ready? 

Are you ready? 

All night I've been staring through the screen can't you tell I want you? Can't be to comfortable but there's nothing I won't do, 

That's when you start to laugh, saying I just want what I can't have, won't even give me a chance claiming I'm just not as serious as you shorty if you only knew, this is serious.. 

I wish i could see you daily, 

I wish I could catch a flight and book a hotel room, 

have you come thru and show you everything I told you I would like to do to you baby. 

That's when you start to laugh, saying I just want what I can't have, won't even give me a chance, claiming I'm just not as serious as you,

shorty if you only knew,

this is serious.. 

Good ones go if you wait too long that's why I'm done waiting, 

I'm done be patient, 

why we gotta put a halt on greatness? 

I'm here and our lives are for the taking, so let's take it.. 

I'll stay as long as you like if you let me, 

I shouldn't be much longer but you shouldn't have to wait... I guess I make it worth it treating you like you're all worth it, 

I'm yours if you still around as our time apart worsens.. 

She knows she knows she knows..

Hope~

It's 12 AM on a Sunday and I know you're asleep but this is when I think about you the most, I just got home from work and I know it's selfish but I wanna wake you from your slumber, scrolling up and down my timeline looking for the exact time you sent your last post, I have a big secret that I wanna share with you so I dial your number, you don't answer and your voice tells me to leave a message, the machine beeps and all I do is breathe cause I wanna share this in person not over radio links, I wanna meet up and finally have the chance to tell you in person these other girls ain't nothing compared to you being the one I mess with, another night goes by another night without you and my confidence shrinks... I can't wait until I can love on you give you everything I said id do, do everything I said I would make everything seem so new, hope this is new.. 

Persian rugs~

Kissing you there

Since that's your spot

Fucking you right

Don't here leave tonight

Girl don't waste my time

Girl don't disappoint me

I don't just wanna lay with you

I wanna stand up with you in my arms

I don't wanna chill

I wanna make love to you

Even though I ain't in love with you

Even though I never kissed you

So what if this is only the first night?

This isn't our first time

Girl don't waste my time

The bedroom is safe quit being afraid

The least imma do is make all the hurt go away

Kissing you there

Since that's your spot

Fucking you right

Don't leave here tonight

I'll be waiting on you

Until you get through

Let your mind set the mood

It's always a deeper love inside

You don't have to hide

I'll make you wanna run but let me stay inside

I don't wanna go outside

I don't wanna leave this room

Don't I turn you on?

Kissing you there

Since that's your spot

Fucking you right

Don't leave here tonight

Lay your tongue on every inch of me

Look up at me you don't need to see

And I'm gon lick right where that g string stay

And I'm gon suck right where that g string stay

My fingers going in and out you bae

Love making is something I just crave 

Does that make me crazy babe?

Shallow soul~

She ease the pain of the battle that's within me, 

the pain from depression and past envy, 

I have every single answer except the ones directed about me, 

I'm complex on purpose you take your time and find out if it's worth it, life lies some would say the truth ain't even worth it, 

she twirls around my mind as my soul spins, 

Living in a everlasting world I want to end..just look at the state I'm in.

S.O.C.

I'm drinking now. 

Almost to the point where I don't care if I end up falling. 

I'm invincible now.

When the liquor is in my soul I feel at home when I'm away.

I'm back home now. 

Her is too, and of course Her found her way back in.

I'm not sure what to do now.

I never ended things, I never wanted things to end.

How do I tell she I love she but have had enough of she?

I've reached my highest solstice. 

My soul is lifting within mischievousness. 

I'm just uncertain on how to dismiss. 

The mourning after, waking up I'll mourn us after. 

A beautiful death of what we couldn't last for. 

Never catch what I'm running after.

Still I chase dodging every curve. 

Filling her straight with curves.

Knocking her down raising her spirits.

She fills my desire but Her is on my wish list.